AM I ONE OF YOU..?

i am 21,legal for everything..or shud i say,i get da 'key' to freedom..

but in my situation,its like i'm 10..

the older i get,the more strict my MA is..

UNREASONABLY STRICT..!!

i'm not typing all dis to discriminate my own fam..

i reli nid to let it out..

argh...!!!

1st main ting,pple will oways say i'm so lucky having 3elder bros and me being da youngest..

but honestly,NO..!!

i'm like da scapegoat,da black sheep..

when MA is angry wif anyone at hm,i'm da 1 tat got scolded..

& when brothers saw MA being upset over some other tings,they will oways take it,its me as da cause..

BUT..!!when MA nids accompany or nids aniting,i was treated like a princess..

when brothers cant do someting for MA.its me who has to do..

please lah..i have feelings..

i cant do everiting alone...!!

2ndly..

from my teenage time to now,i oways have problems going out easily..

be it for my leisure or to study..wif cuzzs,frens or BF..

during teenage time,i nvr reli get to go out easily..

i oways had to lie to my MA so tat i can go out and upon getting tat 'trust',i will end up reaching hm late which is 9pm..

coz of tat,i will be nag as if i didnt go hm at all..!!

& da next day,she will ignore me..

as da yrs paz,tinking tat i am 'old' enuf so tat MA will allow me go out,i told da truth bout me wanting to go out..

again,i was not allowed..

LYING was my onli way out..

Recenty a yr b4 i turned 21,i had dis biggest quarrel wif MA..

main reason for dis,WENT HM LATE..

we didnt talk wif each other for almost 2weeks & mid bro has to be da middle person..

i talked to mid bro and he advised to juz give in & apologised 1st..

i did,but its a very regretful ting for me to do..

MA simply condemned me more & not trusting me..

saying tat i cant make my own decision since i'm not 21..

haiz..!

now wat..!!!

I'M 21,FOR GOD SAKE..!!

still not old enuf for u..!!!

i did tell da truth of where i wanna go..

wif whom i'm going which is onli my BabyLove and my Babes tat you knew for so long..

its not EVERYDAY tat i am going out till so late to relief myself from studies or work..!!

cant u juz trust me & gimme my freedom..?!?!

i'm not asking a 2week holiday to foreign country without you pple and ask for lots of $$$...

by hm b4 12am..?tats like a 17yr old curfew which i obviously didnt get either..

i have an adult brain now,my brothers..

ur excuses can be mine..

my MA is ur MA too..

BE FAIR..!!!

MA,u have 3 fully grown-up sons tat shud be more capable den me..

i am ur onli daughter tat has feelings like ur sons have..

i onli wan understanding,treated fairly and wans to be trusted..

PLEASE..I HAVE ALOT IN MIND WHICH I MYSELF IS STRUGGLING..

SKOOL..TEST..WORK..FINANCIAL MATTER..OWAYS TRYING TO BE DA WAY YOU ALL WAN ME TO BE..

HAVE SOME TIME & TINK..

I JUZ WAN A HAPI FAMILY..UNDERSTANDS ME,TREAT ME FAIR..TRUST ME..TREAT ME AS AN ADULT..

i nid my cheer-up pills:

BabyLove,Hizda,Ian,Marissa