money can be evil too..

sometimes,i juz wish i wont get my pay..
sometimes,i juz wish all dis bursary or scholarship do not exist...
or even better,NO MONEY AT ALL..
perhaps...
hmmm...

everytime i finally got my pay after been broke,i start to have headaches..
Y..??
coz i end up having no money...
clueless bout wat i'm babbling bout..??
let me list wat i have to settle everytime i get my pay..
-give my mom(half my pay)
-Nicko's food(1/3 of da remainder)
-bills(1/3 of da remainder)
-ezlink(1/2 of da remainder)
after settling all tat,i'm left wif juz $10-$30...
tat is to laz till my next pay again..
which mean tat small amt to go out wif BabyLove..
tat small amt for me to either use it for skul food..
tat small amt for me to either spent it on my self-grooming...
my hard earn money..end up i can onli 'taste' it for juz $10-$30..

another ting tat i hate most is when everitime i apply for bursary/scholarship..
wat i oways hope for was to get tat money as a reward for me after yrs of studying like hell..
BUT NO..!!
again,tat money is not for me...!!!
I CANT EVEN GET TO FEEL TAT REWARD..!!!

maybe u all will say i'm rich after i got my $400-$500 pay every mth..
maybe u all will be teasing me to treat u all since u all noe i got my bursary of $1200..
PLZ..!!!
my luck is not like u pple who get to kip ur pay & bursary all for themselves..
can shop for new clothes,watch,shoes & etc...
all my hard earn money,rushing from skul to work wif stupid heavy laptop & uniforms..
all my headaches everytime exams is near..
i cant even enjoy or put a real smile on my face eveytime my bank account has $50 above juz for me...

HAIZ..!!
& again,my tots of making new specs,new bag,aniting new,have to be postponed again(or maybe i shud juz forget bbout it)..
MOQ,i cant do treatment wif u...
BabyLove,lets juz watch movie from my laptop(tanks to my fren,i get free movies uploaded from his hard drive)..

not in any mood.....